I enjoy the shades of me
My confidence is full of pride
This ladder I've chosen to rise onto
It goes as far and as deep as I allow it to
And because I'm free in here
I'm free out here
with no fear of rejection or anti-acceptance
I am in love with me
No need to rush through this thing
because up here it's just me
And I'm taking my time for me
Too long I've lived in this box
Something always blocking me from me
Relationships. Family. A skewed view of me.
Afraid to touch my own body because I was ashamed you see
Ashamed of me
Too many tones.
Too many dark spots.
Too many no's
Why didn't you see me?
I finally realized my acceptance comes not from you.
An ever-evolving creature
A woman comfortable with the uncomfortable
A proper envelope pusher
Not your definition of me
The smile on my face is genuine
I touch it as I look in the mirror and fall in love all over again.
Not with the idea of me.
The notion of me.
The authentic, unapologetic me.